When u make a conscious effort to spend time with me, I will to. As for now, we both live in separate worlds.
The truth is that the more intimately you know someone, the more clearly you’ll see their flaws. That’s just the way it is. This is why marriages fail, why children are abandoned, why friendships don’t last. You might think you love someone until you see the way they act when they’re out of money or under pressure or hungry, for goodness’ sake. Love is something different. Love is choosing to serve someone and be with someone in spite of their filthy heart. Love is patient and kind, love is deliberate. Love is hard. Love is pain and sacrifice, it’s seeing the darkness in another person and defying the impulse to jump ship.
And that’s the most frustrating thing about depression. It isn’t always something you can fight back against with hope. It isn’t even something — it’s nothing. And you can’t combat nothing. You can’t fill it up. You can’t cover it. It’s just there, pulling the meaning out of everything. That being the case, all the hopeful, proactive solutions start to sound completely insane in contrast to the scope of the problem.
It would be like having a bunch of dead fish, but no one around you will acknowledge that the fish are dead. Instead, they offer to help you look for the fish or try to help you figure out why they disappeared.
This is actually a really good way to explain it, I think.
I WILL NEVER NOT REBLOG THIS
My life!!!! No matter whatever happens in our lives and who comes in or out….it’s me and her, always! The person I trust the most and adore the most! Thank you for coming into my life and giving it purpose @chrissymarieee_ #IGaveHerLifenSheGaveMeSomethingToLiveFor 💓
I will always chose to be the nice girl no matter how many times I get kicked down! It’s not in me to be a bitch, as hard as I’ve tried before! Will always wear my heart in my sleeve 💓 I would like to believe at the end it will pay off ☺
I hate it but it seems to be all I’ve been doin lately! Uncontrollably!! I’m so hurt and soo down in a time I should be excited and happy! I dont know how to make it better because making it better would mean I have no soul. Which right now I wish I didn’t! So i would feel hurt by family members that at one point I felt I could count on. I keep tryin and tryin and nothing! Omg I hate crying and I just want to make it stop!